She is Love

I felt a funeral in my brain 

And I thought I died 

But it was all in my brain 

And when the guest all leave 

I watch spring turn to summer

And summer turn to falling leaves 

Until I hear a voice calling me

Whispering …

“Believe!”

“You are Love.” 💕

“GOOD MORNING “

Some nights I want to rush to bed 

Turn off the world’s lights
Enter into a REM sleep 
Drifting from reality to fantasy…
That’s where I find you
And in my dreams you disappear
like a distant memory
Traveling through my subconsciousnes
In daylight I awake just to touch your aura
From two of your eyes into a one track mind
Through the fantasy bodys of two
And the reality of one
Two words that read “good morning”
But really say “my bed wishes you were here”

I drift back off in between reality and fantasy
I try to trace my dreams with the fantasy of my reality and that is where I find you! Vividly alive!

So I fight my dreams and I escape reality
With eyes wide shut, only way to find you
I reach for you and run circles around you
To play chase because I never learned chess “Protect your King”
I lose you in my dreams
you disappear like a distant memory
and my pillow is what I have in my arms
I play with my sheets wrapped around me
Some mornings I rush to rise with words to caress your eyes… and touch your mind
Drifting from dreams to reality
Cause baby your still in my fantasy
But all I text you is “Good Morning”

Stranger Danger!!

I fell for a stranger
Everyone was screaming Danger
I’m use to feeling so much anger
My body was used and my soul was put on a hanger
But he grabbed me by the hand
Held me like he wanted to be my man
I asked him if he was ever arrested
And he asked if I was ever molested
Karma hit me instantly, he tried to see past me
He saw my distance as fear
And right now I wish that stranger were here
I’m a Modern day William Shakespeare
I’m so passionate you gonna taste my tears
You said you got cultural game
Like you don’t know playing brings pain
What do you win when you sin?
Don’t touch my skin, watch me crawl
Like you don’t know I can fall
But fuck it love a poet and live forever
Cause baby I’m tougher then leather
I just met you and you make me feel light as a feather
This usually hurts… I feel comfort
With a stranger
But my heart is screaming danger
He’s asking “what you want to do with me?” damn!
Strangers have the best candy

Run game to hell

I don’t trust a man for shit

I aint giving up P#$&% for D?*#

Ima keep my power

Pleasure only lasting an hour

After that you stuck smoking sour

Cause you gave up all that power

The effects of giving demons a dance

You lost ya pride after you lost your pants

You didn’t need anyone to tell you your beautiful

The force is with you

Keep it pure like virgin blood

Don’t get dirty dancing in mud

Lust expires cause demons are liars

Men are Pigs call me Muslim

Only stick I sleep with is my gun

Only man I trust is Gods son

I’m not in it for the run

I don’t care for a different race

You wont get inside no matter how hard you trace

You could look like God in the face

But you can never take his place

Killa Kellz aint going to hell

Fuck the game

Love will never be the same

2016

Mommaless boys destiny

Mother

So where were you that night I was conceived?
Was it a bar? or was it the street?
How did it happen?
Was it too many pills? Or too much to drink?

How did you feel,
when you found out about me?
Were you really so mad, that you wanted me dead,
like the other children you never had?

Why aren’t you the mother I need?
Is it because you hate me,
or are you just too busy for me?

What did I do, to make you leave?
And why are you so blind,
that you can’t see, all the pain that you’ve caused me?

I needed you there, to soothe my wounds.
And I wanted you there, to watch cartoons.

But you weren’t there, WHY?!

In 1984:
I was born unto a parent unknown, and a parent with no desire to be.
A mistake; un-belonging from the first breath, blink, and cry.

“We should sell him…”
A burden; un-wanted before a first word was spoken, or a first step walked.

Left to a parent’s parent.
Abandoned; a nuisance too great to bother with any longer.

In 1987:
The parent returns, “I don’t even want him.  I just don’t want him with HER.”

Mother abandoned her son.

Grandmother ran from her daughter.
uncle jumped his parole.
I feel like it’s time to run again.
My role-models never faced their fears.
Why should I be any different?

Is there a destiny?

Has fate laid it all before us,
like a yellow brick road paved with potential?
Or do we fulfill our own prophecies,
choosing to live moment by passing moment,
determined to find greatness?

Written by an Anonymous Poet

Naked

Putting your freedom on the line

Just to make ten bucks off a dime

Sell ten more you still cant even buy Jordan’s

I swear men hustle out of boredom

Just to stunt on all those bitches that ignored em

Women are sinning worse then eve In a garden

I’m spitting facts I’m not just recording

Nobody else keeping it real so this is foreign

But I’m tired of seeing beautiful women naked

I tell you the truth sex is sacred

Love isn’t blind its forsaken

Time is a gift, it should never be wasted

Let your spirit be awakened

And keep waiting until your heartbeat stops racing

I promise you true love is waiting

You aint gonna find your family hugging the block

aint no life behind a glock

Aint no wisdom in these rappers we mock

Aint no stars posting naked at starlets

Them girls are in debt

walking around without pants, somebody’s fathers upset

I too have lived a life of regret

I did shit I can never forget

I tried drowning my sorrows in bottles

I tried being Instagram’s top model

But that just wasn’t me

And ever since I been hash tagging God loves ugly

Looking directly into ones soul

Seeing the true consequences of the goal

All the souls that were put for sale

Follow Jesus footprints in the sand, you shall not fail

Don’t follow these demonic trends that lead you to jail

Repent of your sins because nobody wants to go to hell

I know what it feels like to look for love in the streets

Risk ya life late night under the sheets

Geeks are the biggest freaks

That’s why every night I’m making love to beats

No Swiss

Ain’t no love in sin city that’s why pretty woman never kissed

When your gone your just a naked star in the midst

Temptation is hard to resist

When a hustla’s behind bars how many strippers are slitting their wrist?

And when you no longer exist,

You become just a picture on a t shirt, is that how you want to be missed?

If your lost here’s a map

Here’s the truth about the trap

Fearfully and wonderfully you were created

In Gods image so Satan hated

Attacking the poor, blind and naked

Long live the poet

She wakes up in the middle of the night but not to watch the rise of the sun

Her head begins to spin as if the alcohol and her blood are one
She feels the rush and continues the hush …

This was how she silenced the pain
She uses drugs and alcohol to help her feel sane roaming the Internet for soulless attention this is her lonely prevention expect she’s predestined so she’s stuck expressing her idenity through photos which would give no actual comprehension because what’s online is an unobtainable extension
of me
And everything i wish I could be
When the drugs and alcohol leave me I find myself sober at four in the morning my problems drift back without warning now these rhymes I’m storming because I’m bout to give you more of that heart break that no man can take this is all I got left the only thing I can’t fake so watch my art break through the love I can’t make and no longer will I have to weep when I wake
Long live the heart broken poet!

God Loves Ugly

Just out of reach
Too far gone to preach
About days like a Georgia peach
Shine the brass ring
Like an instrument ready to sing
Stretching just to brush the surface
Of that one kiss you might miss
Grabbing at air
He’s looking so he must care
Feeling my aura visually
Symbolizing everything we cant see
As I murder your flesh mentally
It’s a flower let it be
He don’t have
The pail the other kid has
In the sandbox
Because he’s stuck in a box
I’m in front with the switch lock
Getting stared at like I got chickenpox
Perfection i can not fake
The beauty only an airbrush
Can create
I’m human this how God made me
The last sip of coffee
In an empty cup
Didn’t know I hit the ground
Until I tried to get up
The ecstasy inhaled
After the angels failed
With the very first drag
She knew she had lust in a bag
The mate matched perfectly
Both dressed ugly
With the fabric of our being
With beauty beyond the naked eye seeing
Why are we not happy with what we are given?
Because of the sin we indulge in
Why are we constantly striving for the unattainable?
Because we know about the turning of the tables
This ain’t no fable
GOD LOVES UGLY

The effects

Inhale grass to numb the pain
I feel like Mike Douglas in the game
This can’t be real
How can i be insane
He called me crazy
Until..
I began to think I was crazy
John legend got me thinking
Who did this to me?
Found out I’m just angry
This is not about demons
This is about worry
This is not about you
This one’s for me
Fuck the you who told me
I was crazy
I’m just an angry lady
It’s cause and effect baby

Feeding demons tonight

Demons are hungry
They hunting
Under my bed they crawl
Before & after darkness begins fall
There shadows say feed me
I fight and fight
From light to night
But somehow demons get a bite
I scream for what seems like years
Even my sweat carries tears
My faiths been made out of fear
I look around and no one is here
It’s just me and this beer
I break it! I love broken glass
As much as I love a round ass
I dance on it knowing I could bleed
I deserve it I did this with my seed
Emotions filled with greed
I want I want I need I need
More alcohol more weed
Give me something to feed
These demons
keep haunting me